Throughout the whole adoption process, we were caring for your Umma Dee Dee. She had cancer that couldn't be fixed. One of my greatest joys in her last year, was telling her about you. I couldn't tell her what you looked like or anything like that, but I told her about the idea of you entering our lives. She was so excited about that.
You would have loved her. She made the best sugar cookies with icing and sprinkles on top at Christmas time. The tree shaped ones tasted the best. She also loved to give hugs and kisses.
She always asked me if we had any more news about when you were coming. I think she knew that she was too sick to actually meet you and I realized it too. I tried to think of a way that you would be able to touch her and she you. I had all of your grandparents leave their handprint in brightly colored paint on a picture I am making for you. Umma Dee Dee picked purple paint. She was very weak, but managed a smile and enjoyed our art project very much. This picture will hang in your room so you can touch any of them anytime you want.
December 8th, 2005
Sadly, Umma Dee Dee passed away on December 8th, 2005. She wanted to meet you so much. The last moments I had talking with her were about you. I was holding her hand and was very close to her face. She was heavily sedated, and could not talk, but I know she heard and understood everything I said. I told her that I would make sure that you know who she was and all of the wonderful things about her. I also told her that I had a secret for a long long time and was waiting for the right time to tell her. The secret was that we would name you after her. You will be known as Dee Dee. I hope it suits you :) Umma Dee Dee was very pleased about this. She gave me a look that I will never forget and she stared directly into my eyes...a look that went all the way into me...into my heart.
On this day, we received our first letter from US Embassy in New Delhi, India. We received our 171-H or the Notice of Favorable Determination Concerning Application for Advance Processing of Orphan Petition. It means we can be parents!
Mountaintops and Valleys
3 weeks ago